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December 5th, 2009
unsentletters
[sopeerocks]
 | 06:44 pm
Dear Alfredo,
I don't understand you. You say that you love me, and you
really act as if you do. You always make me feel like you care
about me more than anyone else. But then when I try to talk to
you in the morning time you always ignore my texts, you don't ever
respond. And then it's late at night when you decide you want to
talk to me.
It's so annoying, and it makes me feel like I can't try to talk to
you during the daytime without coming off as obsessive and needy.
Make a decision, because if you don't respond to me tonight, I am
going to forget you and drop you forever. I don't deserve to wait
around like this for some guy who claims he loves me, and I don't
need to cry over another guy. I don't need someone else to hurt me
again. I just don't need that, don't need the way that you're acting
towards me.
I deserve someone better.
Love,
Your "Lovebug"
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[maybetonightx]
 | 08:52 pm
dear boy,
you're a let down. a disappointment. you've let everything we had, everything we promised, every possible thing that we had go for what? for a chance to test other waters? a chance to think? i don't know what you threw it away for. don't feed me lies about how you don't think we'll last once we graduate because it's not true. i want to be able to wake up to your face every morning and fall asleep with you next to me every night. we'll make it work. it's not impossible. but you're killing me and i don't think i'll be alive when you finally decide to come to me. shit, it hurts. every minute that we spend doing this feels like a decade. i hope it's hurting you as much as it's hurting me but something in my gut tells me that it's not painful. it's easy for you to forget about me. to let me go and not even second guess it. jesus, i can't stop thinking about you.
but then i remember everything and i get angry. we talked about getting married. we wanted an apartment together. we looked at apartments in Denver one night because we decided we would go to college there. we talked about how amazing it would be to come home to each other and be able to make love every night.my chest feels tight just thinking about it. now, you barely call me or text. we talked almost a week ago. i think about how you told me to sleep tight, to not let the bedbugs bite, and how you loved me that night before we fell asleep on the phone together. but if you loved me you would fucking call. i sit by my phone, like a dog waiting for a bone, for your calls. i don't get them. i am so angry at you. i want to cause you pain.
i promised you i would be here for you. consider it broken like that promise that you would never leave me. thinking back on it, i should have known you would. i am not going to call you. i will busy myself with sleeping or writing or reading or drawing or painting. anything to keep me from thinking about you. i am done. i am so tired of this that my heart aches from how much effort i put into fixing us. i don't even hope that you regret what happened between us. by the time you do i'll be gone. the only thing i hope is that you can take care of yourself once i am not there to do it for you.
olivia
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[molokoplus1980]
 | 01:52 am
Dear..?
I don't normally do things like this. I don't normally write letters which will never be read by the 'person' who I had intended the letter for. I don't normally write letters which seem self indulgent, or perhaps that should be self absorbed? Yet, here I am. Writing this now.
I'm not a religious person. I don't pray (well, maybe once or even twice). I don't go to church or to confession. I've never fully read the Bible (although, I did promise I would in that deal we made. Do you remember it? In the taxi, on the way to the hospital?). You see, I struggle to believe that there really is 'more' out there. That there is 'someone' or 'something' which guides us. Something which built this world that crushes people like me with one fist, and yet, caresses other people with the other hand? It just seems a little bit too far fetched. A little bit 'too good to be true.' A little bit too fantastical to even be plausible for me. Yet, I can't help but find a little comfort in the thought that perhaps there could be 'something' beyond all of this? That when my time comes, I will finally get the answers I've struggled to find? The explanations of which I surely deserve to know by now? Maybe even some justice or compensation, if that's not too much to ask for? Because I really struggle to comprehend why things had to be the way they are? Why? What purpose does it serve? How does it help your 'plan?' Why was my life completely fucked before I had even left the womb? What has it achieved other than utter misery? I'm honestly confused?!
Yes, it is true what they say, anger and bitterness is a cancer and it will eat you up until you are nothing but a rotten core with a fleshy shell. But angry and undoubtedly bitter I am regardless. I have no time nor patience for anyone or anything anymore, but that is a by-product from twenty nine years of watching, beyond my control, everything fall apart. Of not being who I could have been. Held back by your choice. Not mine.
However, please think kindly of me, there was a time when I used to be a nice person. Someone who would bend over backwards to help people - only to be trod on, or stabbed in the back or spat in the face, time and time again. Especially when I was a child. Whilst others who are spiteful, cruel, shallow and selfish in nature had gifts and talents showered upon them in an abundance, yet I was left bereft?
Anyway, it is getting late now and I am tired. So, it's now time for me to end this letter. By the way, I won't be offended if you don't reply. To be honest, I'm not expecting you to. It's not really your style after all, is it? Admittedly, there was a time when I found your silence utterly deafening, but now I think it's for the best? After all, I wouldn't like to think of what I would say to you if you could actually be bothered to respond for once?
Regards,
One of your children...but you treat me as anything but.
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[sorryimsorry]
 | 06:51 pm
To the Crimson Tide football team,
YOU GUYS ROCK. Keep it up!
I expect quite a bit of gator meat by the end of this game.
Roll Tide, baby! I LOVE YOU GUYS!
Love,
Just your average obsessive fan
***
Dear Brandon,
Where did you go? Just because you're in college, that gives you the right to fall off the face of the earth? I have other friends in college who are able to answer text messages. If you're busy, AT LEAST SAY SO. You can't live for the next four years in your bedroom. You're going to have to answer your phone SOMETIME.
And I know I'm not supposed to say it, considering all that we've been through, but I can't wait to see you on the 26th. I miss you a lot more than I should, but I know nothing is ever going to be serious between us. You don't want that in your life right now, and that's fine. I don't love you.
But, at least answer my texts. It's been months, B.
Love,
Your friend
***
My football player,
I love you, I love you, I love you.
Nothing is ever going to change that.
Love,
Your band geek
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unsentletters
[annie_leigh]
 | 10:37 am - ...
Nate,
God, you are adorable. I hate how girly and cliche that sounds, since that's just not how I am...but you aren't really hot. Since that one second I spoke to you last week, you have slowly invaded my thoughts. I don't like you, but God knows I'm interested! Just a one minute conversation, and I'm finally getting those feelings that I never can seem to go more than a month wihtout- the fluttery heart crap, and the "butterflies'...I just hope I don't actually start to like you. That would be somewhat unpleasant, especially since you're what....a junior? A senior?
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[viper_rock]
 | 12:28 am
( Cut for much longness, confusion, and back story. )( Read more... )
And really, despite your calling me a loser, and acting like me being a lesbian would be a terrible insult, I wish you well. I wish you joy of your new life, your underage girlfriend, and so on. I'm taking the moral high ground. Seriously, if I ran into you in the street, or the store, I'd probably smile at you, and say "Hey. How's it goin'?"
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[artistefolle]
 | 01:00 am - One book closed, another ready to be written
Dear D_____ ,
It's the end of my chapter (that is my feelings for you). I realize how foolish I was all those years ago to have such strong feelings for you. Five years later and I think this book is closed forever.
Let me get the FACTS straight:
1) You are married.
2) You have 4 kids.
3) A good looking wife that happens to be of the same faith and ethnicity as you.
4) You have every reason to be happy - because of 1),2),3) and a wife that earns loads of money doesn't hurt.
5) You would compliment me in front of my face but behind my back, say other things. You made me feel like I was someone with no level of education,no talents, no skills. Completely worthless.
6) Personal things I shared with you, you divulged to others.
I have lots of good things happening in my life. I have a whole lot to offer to someone:
1)I am very fit and more confident about my attractiveness than I have ever been -which my future husband can boast about
2) A great career - 3 university degrees and additional goals (like a few fellowships) I am working towards-which my future husband can boast about
3)I have many talents which a future husband can boast about with his friends and co-workers one day
4) I am a good cook
5) I am giving, considerate, compassionate and many other things
6) I am a virgin and I believe in being a one woman-man. A special man will have me one day and appreciate that I don't have a "history".
Yes and there are many more other things which I won't list. I know I am worth it. Someone like me takes time in finding someone special.
I was meant for someone else. Isn't it clear?
I hope you stop the prank calls and give it up. YOUR GAME IS UP. YOU ARE NOT SINGLE ANYMORE SO STOP CHASING WOMEN. FACE REALITY- married man with 4 kids. Have a nice life, OK? Good luck.
I feel so much better now for writing this! A new life is waiting for me...New Year's Day is going to be especially special this year. LOL
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December 4th, 2009
unsentletters
[acidqueen31]
 | 10:14 pm
Dear Greg,
Wow. When I finally decided to quit putting up with your bullshit, I thought I'd feel horrible and be miserably sad.
But you know what?
I FEEL FANTASTIC!!!
It's the craziest thing! Now that I'm not spending my time worrying about you or pining over you, I'm really happy! It's like you were a dementor and someone suddenly used their patronus. So really, thank you. Thank you for being a complete asshole to me and treating me like dirt so that I had the guts to ditch you and all your stupid crap. I feel SO much better now. So thanks. I'll thank you in my Oscar speech.
Love,
N
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[lenny_b37]
 | 03:45 pm - To you who I can not touch but feel you here with me
I hardly know you but of what I do know I can conclude that I could truly love you if we were only given the luxury of time. It infuriates me that we are separated by such a vast distance. However, even though the frustration caused by such a separation drives me to the brink of rebellion, I am also humbled and great full for our great divide. If it were not for the simple truth of my own doubt I would of foolishly come to join you long ago. Would ever we have become such great friends if not for this geographic wedge between us. If we had not been separated would we have taken the time to learn of the others origins, stories or personality. At what point would licentious behavior taken control. And would friendship be aloud to blossom in the shadow of lust. Could it have cost us our friendship, the foundation that all my previous relationships have completely and utterly lacked. Is our division a blessing in disguise. Is it a chance to allow our affection to grow the way it was intended to, over time. I immensely enjoy every conversation that we have. At night as I slip softly into the realm of unconscious surrender, it is to the fantasies and dreams of what it would be like to interact with you in person that invades my mind. Oh how wonderful in would be to converse with a flesh and blood being instead of this plastic piece of technology with it's limited forum offered by an electronic social medium. What it would be like to simultaneously embrace each other in our arms. The feeling of our skin as it brushes against one another. My exuberance at the repetitive motion of tracing a path through your hair with my figure tips as I slowly, softly caress you with my touch starting just above the top of the ear, continuing to the side of the neck and then ending my migration at the edge of your shoulder just to do and about-face and repeat the path in reverse. The sight of our breath as it lingers in the cold winter air. No longer strangers split apart by thousands of miles but a single being sharing a moment of rapture. In these fantasies I think of what could be and what is yet to come. Oh how I yearn for the day that I will wake from these torturous dreams and you will be there next to me. So then I wait patiently to help me believe that this is the real me and not some fool hearty child that longs blindly for embrace and an end to solidarity. Who clings to the first distributor of loving affection regardless of their sincerity or authenticity. I will not be a patron on a ship of fools. So this will be my reason, my hope to believe in. Even if I am alone where I dwell I am not alone in the world. And the cold emptiness of my isolation will no longer penetrate deep into my heart, it will not touch me for this is my proving ground and I will not fail at the task.
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[darkgreylenses]
 | 01:45 pm
dear boy with the blue eyes and the same coat as me,
From the moment I first saw you, I thought "There's a mod." You were wearing your parka, if I remember correctly, and slim fit jeans, possibly sta-prest. I knew it immediately from the way you smoked your cigarette, and I also thought "I'll never be friends with him, he probably thinks I'm some wannabe mod or something." And you looked so sharp, so perfect and mod with the plumes of smoke rising from between your fingers that I felt ashamed of myself, for being shabby, and for being an un-mod of sorts.
But (thankfully) I was so wrong. That night when I spoke to you for the first time, you made me feel such elation, I didn't think it was physically possible. I was singing, mock-dancing, doing all the things so foreign to me, putting on accents, loving my life, the world and everyone I encountered... why do you have this effect upon me? You have such charisma, I've never seen the like before. You make me feel so special, and wanted, and just... you make me feel like an awesome person. In time, I want to be one of your best friends.
When I heard that you feel compelled to look after me on our 'lads' nights out a bubble of warmth and happiness seemed almost to balloon and swell in my chest. No boy has ever wanted to or offered to protect me before, and this alone is enough to make me feel sheer adulation for you, simply because you have picked up on the fact that I'm an emotionally vulnerable person and moved closer, as opposed to further away. You are one of the most beguiling, intelligent and invigorating people I have ever met in my life, I want to get to know you better.
love,
your rudegal
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unsentletters
[blondie467]
 | 08:07 pm
Dear life,
What. The. HELL.
I mean, REALLY. Must you give me hardship after hardship after hardship? WHAT IS YOUR POINT? What am I being punished for? Why am I such a shit magnet?!?
I'm sick of your crap! Sick of it, I say!
Disgustedly,
Me
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December 8th, 2009
naturalliving
[evershadowed]
 | 02:30 pm - home made face wash + question
( cut for length XD )
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Current Music: over and over - three days grace
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December 7th, 2009
naturalliving
[misswithers]
 | 09:54 pm - Wormies
A few weeks ago I heard a radio program called Radio Lab that was doing a segment on human parasites. It featured a man who infected himself with hookworm to cure his asthma and allergies.
Here are some links:
http://www.kuro5hin.org/story/2006/4/30/91945/8971
http://mrhartansscienceclass.wordpress.com/2009/09/28/wnyc-radiolab-parasite-podcast/
http://topics.npr.org/article/00HE9yx4IG9Tv
Does anyone have any info/experience with this? I've suffered from both my entire life and am currently on three different medications for my asthma. The option seems kind of attractive to me.
It's got to be more natural than pharmaceuticals, right?
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naturalliving
[danceuponstars]
 | 11:58 pm - CSA post?
Hi ya'll about a month or two ago, someone posted about a CSA that was in the NY, NJ, DE, MD area. But I can't find the post. They also delivered on a regular basis to my area and I was thinking about looking in to them now that I'm planning to go veg*n.
Does anyone remember what the CSA was? Thanks! BTW, I looked through the tags and couldn't find it :(
EDIT: I'm specifically looking for the one that fedex your share as I am not close enough to any csa's to pick up on a regular basis.
Thanks!
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naturalliving
[myrcwood_rose]
 | 06:40 pm - Ringworm solutions?
Anyone got any home remedies for ringworm that will work on both a cat and a not-quite-three month old? I just noticed that the cat had a couple little bald patches on his head, then a few minutes later I see the little ring on my poor baby. I'm freaking out a bit, I'm a little new at this mommy thing, and I'm also flat broke right now, so if there are no other solutions I can take the boy to the doc, but there is no way I can afford a vet trip. I'm grateful for any help or suggestions you have, also, sorry if you see this more than once, I cross-posted a bit.
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naturalliving
[imogen_morley]
 | 09:04 pm - Portable and protein-rich snack ideas
Hello! I'm a long-time lurker, posting for the very first time.
I'm doing my best to improve my pretty crappy eating habits. I've always been three square meals kind of a gal with hearty appetite, but in my job carving out some time for an uninterrupted lunch is almost impossible on most days, and I rarely go straight home after work. I figured it would be better to do a complete makeover and start eating more often (read: whenever I have the chance), but smaller portions. So here's my question: what types of food would you recommend to keep one satisfied for at least 3 hours? Snacking on fruit, granola bars or rice cakes won't work out, because my stomach will be growling after an hour or so. I also don't want to rely on nuts too much. Any ideas for protein-rich snacks/small meals that are convenient enough to eat at the desk, on the bus or while waiting at the tram stop?
Thanks in advance!
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creativewriting
[roman_spring]
 | 01:53 pm
Anne Whitehouse is reading her poetry on every radio station NPR related with her latest release, Blessings and Curses. The spirit of her voice is embedded in the words of this collection of 40 blessings and 24 curses. Read our review of Blessings and Curses here and find out more about Anne and her life as a poet.
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naturalliving
[morningapproach]
 | 11:48 am
About 8 months ago I decided to start the switch to a more natural lifestyle, and my first step was my hair. I tried no-poo but it wasn't for me so I am now using LiveClean shampoo, conditioner, and body was as it is vegan and free of chemicals. Prior to that my scalp was irritated & itchy by the SLS in the shampoo and then cleared up with the switch, but now it is starting to come back. It is worse on the crown of my head, and I am not sure how to resolve it. I scrub my scalp in the shower to clean any products off, but other than that I have no idea what to do. Before I would resort to a coal-tar based dandruff shampoo that worked wonders, but I don't want to use that except as a last resort.
What do you do for itchy scalps when you are on a natural regiment? I am stuck and itchy and lost right now,
Thanks :)
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naturalliving
[litteraoccidit]
 | 05:56 am
question: is anybody out there boycotting Monsanto products? short of growing your own food, is that even possible? does anyone have a list of things to avoid, subsidiary companies and such? there needs to be a corporate wiki somewhere...
related question: does "USDA Organic" mean no GMOs, or just no pesticides and chemical fertilizers and such?
Current Music: Shiva In Exile - Breathing
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naturalliving
[clutterbang]
 | 05:38 pm - Would you like some iced heavy metal water?
I am SO pissed - fluoride has come to my city! What I thought was taking a couple years to implement has turned up. Today. Despite the outcry. My one-year-old is bottle fed, and you can't boil fluoride out. Now we get to bathe in it, cook our food in it, water our vegetables with it.. I'm utterly nauseated and wish we could afford to get a filter before this baby comes.
I didn't really have a question, just thought I'd put that out there.
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